Being Alone

Now, Both kavitha and Tamilselvan left me in bangalore and went to Kaveripatnam.

Feeling alone.

Not sure what stopped me to travel with them. That would have been a better idea

Missing a phone is crime,

Ahh, Accidenly missed my phone in my home itself.

Would like to talk to Kavi kutty but cannot do the same. I would like to fly now and appear in front of her but unable to do that.

Rajasekar came and need to support him. Tomorrow got a list of meetings which I cannot miss.

Wednesday got my presentation of ebonding to the local heads.

Shit. The fate is playing with me like anything.

Sorry kavi kutty.

A Letter can ruin your dreams ?

While searching the PAN card of my NGO trust, I found bunch of letters. Because of the time constrain , I couldn't see all but one.

That is addressed to Geetha and from Kavitha. After going through the letter, I understood that there are lot of misunderstanding between me and Kavitha.

An interesting letter though it is ruining my dreams now.

Nothing to say. Perceptions are like color glasses. If you see through your perception class, each event will give different meaning for different people. Read it somewhere in my human geography lesson.

 Better, I will prepare for my expiry date.

Misunderstandings are Plenty

Oh, seems like misunderstandings are cooked for dinner or lunch on daily basis. Chennai plan start screwing up. But I would like to execute if we have any possibilities. For two reasons, Visiting Viji akka is one of your dream in the dream note , the second one , I want to show the Sea to tamilselvan. I really don't want to miss it.

Do I want to explain how it started, running and ends ? I don't want to repeat it one more time. It is same pattern.

Now a days, I am afraid of seeing the SMSs. The SMS vibration itself sending the panic signals.

Enjoy the life Buddy. Let us check what is available for dinner today :-)

How to Live with Angel ?

Ahh, After three five month , I got this doubt again.

Here it goes.

I asked Kavitha, my angel to look for a house. Because I know, I will screw it up and it may give discomfort to her. She tried, even I tried but both failed to find a good house.

Now the request goes to next level. We asked our friends Krishnan and Prabu to look for the same. As expected, they found a house , tried to validate and found that owner is not up to the mark. But lucky guys, they found another house. It seems good. At that time, both myself and Kavitha are in Bangalore.

My father want to given the advance ( I found nothing wrong here. That is the usual process. See the house, if you like, give the advance). Before processing the same, I asked Kavitha and confirmed same. I told her to leave bangalore and have a look at the house. As usual Angel start blaming me. She thinks that I am forcing her to go to Kaveripatnam. My idea is simple. If you are going to live in a house, better go ahead and check it before giving the advance.

She told it is fine. Now the half of the advance given. When we about to leave, Tamilnadu Govt. postponed the school opening (Not a bad idea Govt) and Kavitha can stay here little bit long. Then also, I want her to go to Kaveripatnam and have a look at the house. She denied, start blaming me (what else I am going to get).

The mile ceremony date fixed by my father which should be on 12-Jun-2013. Now we need to decide whether do a whitewash or not. It should happen before Mile ceremony. Called Adhimulam, and discussed about the same. He needs four to five days to complete everything. All these things happening on Sunday, 2nd of June 2013.

Since the timeline is tight and availability of Adhimulam is  unpredictable. I decided to go ahead and asked him to start the whitewash.

From Monday, Kavitha started behaving differently. Not answering my phone calls. Ideally, she is denying me.

Today(06-June-2013), I discussed with Packers and Movers and decided to move all the things by 15th June. This is just for kavitha. I know she is not comfortable in my old house so decided to move the things ASAP.

When calling, she start blasting me. She doesn't like the house and she don't want to live there. Which is fine, but denying to talk and act differently is too much I think. I don't want to blame her. Might be one of the qualities of Angel.

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Here is how I am planning to settle it down.


1. Return the advance amount to Kavitha. Having that amount in her account will help her to search for a house and when she finds one, she can give the advance immediately (Here you go. Get ready for another blast and cry).

2. Pay the rent from my pocket. Fair enough. I did this mistake. Without any emotional thing, If I forced her to go to Kaveripatnam, this problem won't occur. 

3. Wait for Kavitha to find a house. Don't know How I can help her. Let me see.

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End of the story :  If you want to live with angel, get ready to face this kind of problems.

~With Smile
 VK

கவிதா ,

I could feel your pain and understand the reason beyond it.

Like a frightened cat attacks the beloved owner while he is picking up the cat, I attacked and humiliated you for no reason.

This is due to my fears,confusions and afraid of future as well as the past. But whatever the reason, I don't have any rights to humiliate you.

I am extremely sorry madam.

I ruined the relationship and not sure whether I can do something to recover the same to old status. But I promise that I won't do any more damage and try to keep the relationship in the same if I am unable to improve.

Once again, Sorry for the all the happenings.

~With Sad,
VK 

Less Pain

Slowly returning to my old status but the pain is still there. Now it is tolerable pain. But my angry hasn't come down. It is increasing.

Let me wait to get it settle down. I am like a boar in the Princess Monaco movie